I'm new to this site & so far think I've finally found a place I can be open about my grieving the loss of my loved one to suicide. It's been 7yrs for me that I've been in the worst emotional hell of my entire life. To this day, I still cry everyday. Sometimes I cry many times a day. If I hear his name or see a firetruck (he was a firefighter) it makes me break out in tears more times then not. How long will I feel like this? I dunno how much more I can take.