I lost my husband May 29,2020.We would have been married 16 years July 19,2020. This was my 3rd marriage. I was 18 the first time I got married and he was my first boyfriend and a long story. I had all intentions to grow old with him but we only made it 4 1/2 years.He became abusive after the 3rd year.So I finally got a divorce. I turned my life over to the Lord in 1990.I married this guy 1991 On Valentines Day . I grew up with this guy our parents were friends and we attended the same church growing up.What was so crazy I despised him all our childhood. He had got saved in 1988 and became a Preacher.He was 4 years older than me.He had actually went to school with my Ex.So a long story!!We had 2 daughters 6 years apart.Well our marriage fell apart.Ended up in a bad Divorce after 13 years . I had worked with Robert and we were friends for 4 years and after I got a divorce we started dating.We got married July 19,2004.I knew that I actually was never in love until I got with Robert.He was my soul mate.We had our ups and downs but we were gonna grow old together.He was bipolar and never took his medication the right way.So he would get Moody.He snapped on me May 28 and I ended up having to call the police and went to my sisters to spend the night. I was leaving for Ga.the next morning for a Gender party and thought it would be ok when I got back home Sunday. I was in Chattanooga when I got the call that our neighbor found him dead in the floor!! So this is my story. I was in total shock and I have so many questions and will never know the answers!!! I hope you are not looking at me as a cheater and an trashy woman. I just don’t have room to tell all the stories about my life with my Exes!!! Actually I have been abused my entire life until I married Robert. And honestly I look back and I guess I was mentally abused to a certain point. My heart is broken and I would give anything if I hadn’t went to my sisters that night because he may still be here with me tonight!!! If you believe in God I ask you to pray for me.