I lost my fiance June 21, 2019. There isn't a single moment out of the day where I don't miss him. This wasn't part of the plan, our chapter was not supposed to end so soon. We have a beautiful little girl arriving September 21st, 2019. He was so excited, and was going to be an amazing father. I'm so heartbroken. I feel lost and, hopeless. I've had to change my whole routine around... I no longer have someone to fall asleep next too or share the excitement of my day with. I hate the saying " everything happens for a reason" . This will never make sense to me . My heart wants something I can't have and it makes me physically sick to have to carry on without the love of my life .