I am not sure that anyone will actually read this but here it goes... I lost my Grandmother to cancer a little over a year ago now.. and I still don't feel any better. She was more than a grandmother to me. Nana was my mother and a best friend. Due to my father abandoning me at age 1 and being an alcoholic and my mother being mental ill and very absent, I lived and was raised by Nana. I truly don't think I would be alive today without her. She was the only person I could cling to and make myself live for when I wanted to die. There is so much more to this story. I guess I don't know where to start. I just feel incredibly alone and don't know what to do. I don't feel like I have anyone else and I know I can still talk to her but it just doesn't feel the same. Can anyone relate?