Barry,
So sorry for your loss of your wife Peggy. Life right now with the covid-19 threat to us all is very scary. We have to take precautions to help one another, and of course I realize that in life nothing is guaranteed, ever.
With you forced to shelter like so many of us, it appears to limit our choices, or at least so it would seem. What I have found since this went into effect is a profound awakening by my own family.
We each have our own lives, but the one saving grace has been the daily calls we have shared with each other. We also ask each other how we are doing, and never forget to say we love you.
Before this happened, I was in my own little world, having had many losses in my life and you are correct how others no longer wish to talk of it. BUT, now we seem to have so much more to talk about today than we ever had in the past.
My brother and I share our memories of our times in Vietnam and the service, and my older sister talk of all the great times we had in the past as we grew up. My younger sister also has an extended family, and we make sure to keep in contact more now than ever before.
In short, we each have our own lives, but now also draw upon what once was, and we have no idea if we will be here tomorrow, or for the fact, when and if our lives will ever be cut short.
Barry, talking is how we help our emotions not be so painful. Sure it takes time, sure we cry, sure loss is hard to overcome, and most assuredly, we want for our sorrow to be no more.
I remember how lonely the nights have been. The echo I hear in the room, there being no answers back anymore. But eventually, as time helped me not feel so bad inside anymore, the nights are now more tolerable. I am also a realist, sure my wife is gone, but she left behind so many special memories of herself with me and our two sons.
I will always miss Nadine. There might always be a tear in my eyes for her and an ache in my heart when I think of her. But that won’t ever stop me from remembering the past, and the unconditional love she shared with us and everyone else.
Barry, keep talking, keep opening up as you are able, and we will listen. For now I hope you will find some peace tonight and the days forward. But whatever you do, please don’t ever give up.
-david
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