I lost my husband almost two months ago due an unexpected cardiac event. The day of his death completely turned my world upside down. I lost all sense of direction on everything; it paralyzed me. The waves of emotions are coming at me from all corners. I used to be a very vibrant, jolly person. When I look in the mirror now, I see an extremely lonely, lost, and hopeless person - someone I hardly recognize. I miss him every second and the realization that he is not coming back makes the heartbreak even more painful.