8 Weeks ago, my best friend and soulmate took her own life while I slept in our bed. I found her in the shop and our .38 was laying beside her. She had struggled all her life with inner demons and I really thought that we were doing well. There are so many unanswered questions and the note she left me was so awful. I would have done anything for her and I would give anything to just have the chance to live that day again. I am so lost.