I lost my mom last month Suddenly. She was sick and I knew that but I didn't know so sick she was going to die. We were estranged. I also lost my grandfather the day after. His death was not Sudden. I feel confused...about my life. I want to buy things I've always wanted and do things, run away, travel, quit my job, don't know if I am meant to be a stay at home mom...I am lost in my own identity since their deaths. Is that normal?