My mom was a narcissist. My dad was an alcoholic. Needless to say I did not have a healthy childhood. Dad died in 2008 and well, good riddance. Where am I stuck? Mom. I can't get through this at all. I can't release that part of me that is still desperate for her love and approval. I can't release that part of me that learned unhealthy self-sacrifice at her feet. I can't release that part of me that has become malignantly perfectionistic. I can't release that part of me that feels like even though she's gone, I'm not really free to be who I am. I am looking for grief counseling. I just don't want to feel alone anymore. I always feel like there's something wrong with me that no one else will ever understand even though there are probably thousands of people like me in the world. I'm tired of feeling like a freak because of my childhood. I'm tired of feeling like I'm the only person who has ever felt this way. What helps you feel more connected to others in this new life?