I lost my husband four months ago. It seems like yesterday. We were married for 40 years and were truly in love. He died during Covid so I wasn’t allowed to have a viewing or anything. They gave me and my children an half an hour to see him and then we went to the cemetery. I was just so mad at everyone and everything. Now we are having a memorial in August and I know this is going to be so hard. I can’t sleep,I’m depressed and I cry every nite. I need to make peace with god but right now I just can’t. He didn’t even have the chance to get one session of chemo. My heart breaks every night.