Hello, my name is Amanda and I am a 20 year old college student in her junior year. On Sept. the 21st, I received the worst news of my life when I walked up to my boyfriend's fraternity house to meet him that night, and I found cop cars there instead. I dropped to my knees when they told me he was gone; he was my best and only friend here in college, for I go to a school far from my home and parents. He shot himself with a gun I don't even know how he got. I am so confused and angry at him...mostly still in shock. I am wondering how to cope with my day-to-day and hopefully meet anyone who has suffered a similar loss such as this...so unexpected, sad, and just overall confusing... This is the first time I have even discovered there were sites dedicated to people in such terrible grief such as this so it's so nice to see that I am not alone in this struggle. Please reach out if anyone wants to talk or make a new friend, I could really use one right now.