Sleep just won't come. Too many things swirling in my head. Today (actually yesterday, I guess ) was the anniversary of losing my momma. Even though it was 4 years ago, the pain of losing her is still so strong. I still pick up my phone to call her when something happens I want to share with her or I'm having a bad day and just need to hear her tell me it's going to be ok....then sting of reality hits. I've had people (including family members) tell me it's been long enough....time to get over it. Those are harsh words when your grief is still so strong and real. So today I kept myself locked away...alone...to grieve without judgement. I miss her so much.