Hello everyone, I lost my mother 3 weeks ago. I haven't slept since, except for 2-3 hours every few days (8 hours per week at best), and that's when I take some sleep-eze or night time cold medication. I was told those sleeping pills would knock me out but they don't. I tried meditation, sleep hypnosis, exercise, keeping busy until I drop... but nothing works. The few times I do sleep, I dream my mom is still alive and all this was just a nightmare, then I wake up and realize the nightmare is reality. I don't want to see a doctor and get hooked on any kind of antidepressant that will numb me (I'm not sick, I'm just grieving). This didn't happen when my father passed away, it was actually the opposite, I slept for weeks on end. I'm wondering if anyone else is going through, or has gone through this? Is insomnia a part of grief? Will I ever properly sleep again?