Hello to everyone reading this! I am 25 and at times feel like I should be able to cope with the loss of my mother from breast cancer in 2008, and my best friend from an overdose in 2015 at this point. Whenever the month of their passing comes (mom in May and best friend in November) it completely effects me even subconsciously. At times, if I experience something that reminds me of them I just start crying uncontrollably. I know it will always be hard thinking of their sudden passing... and not having them here in my life as I wish they could be, but I don’t know how I’m supposed to get control of my grief even years and years later. I feel it still effects me so much and I wish I could find a way to cope with the loss so it stops destroying me.