I have been terrible for a week now. Every day I'm thinking about and missing her the whole day thru. Don't know how many times I've cried but I know I've cried every day at least 2 or 3 times. I was doing so well with my grief! This past week has been a set back. I'm in shock again and can't believe this has happened. I talk to her like she's still here. I'm very hard to be around but hate being alone. I wasn't even paying attention to the calendar until today when I realized tomorrow is another 2nd of the month. I don't want to live this way. Tomorrow is a good day to start getting better again. I'll go to bed early and have energy to start a GOOD day! Wish me luck!