I lost my Dad when I was 15. He had bone cancer, we didn’t know this, it was only until he went to India he found out. He couldn’t fly back so he stayed there. My whole family went out but because I was only 15 they needed a parent signature. When it was sent it was told the signature didn’t match. I had to stay behind I never got to say goodbye or see him for one last time. We was very close and this hit me hard. My mom come back and started drinkin a lot more then she used to. I never had time to grieve for my dad I focused on looking after my mom, we got told she would only have 2 years to live that was in 2011, she passed away 2016. I made her my life I looked after her every hospital appointment I was there, we was so close I was so happy. I was 6 months pregnant when I had to watch my mom die in front of me. I couldn’t take the pain away from her. I refused to say a last goodbye to her because I couldn’t believe this was happening,( she was over the moon I was having a girl, as we don’t have any of them family) I changed my mind in the last second and said goodbye. I whispeared in her ear and it was when I stepped out the room she passed away. Raising my daughter and grieving is so hard. I always feel lost and unhappy. I feel like none understand because it’s been 2 years it’s that ‘get over it attitude’ My daughter has taught me so many things about life but I always say I’m living for her, but I feel lost like I’m a robot. I just don’t know how to move on. I miss them both so much I’m only 24, I just don’t know how to deal with this and my life issues. My mother would be the one I talk to about things, I have family but no one can replace and that’s hard for me.