Hello, so my father died suddenly when I was 10 in a helicopter crash. It's coming up on the 10 year anniversary now and I'm really having a hard time processing this and I'm looking for someone who can possibly relate. It's hard because after this anniversary, for the rest of my life I will have spent less time without him than with him. I feel horrible and guilty because there are so many things I forget. I feel like I never really even got to know him because I was just a kid and we didn't get to appreciate talking to each other as two adults. I feel bad for my mom and I don't know how to bring it up or how to ask to hear more stories and more information since that's kind of how I have to get to know him now. I just keep realizing more and more how much he is going to continue to miss like my wedding or my children and I have a boyfriend now that I so wish he could meet. I just don't know where to turn or who to talk to because it's been so long no one really checks up on this subject anymore.