Dad here one minute, gone the next

Is this for real? We found out last Thursday. Just a little over a week ago and I cant grasp it. This is not my first time. I lost my beautiful momma 5 years ago to cancer. I was 25 and had a 4 year old. I felt.lost and scared but with her she has as sick and on hospice. It's still painful but I prepared. Amid the things I wanted to say. Did the things I wanted to do. Not all of them but some. My father and I had an up and down relationship since her passing. But this past year we had become closer than ever. My son and him had a bond from birth. They were best friends. I dont know what to do. How to get through it this time. I am a 31 year old orphan and as weird as that sounds I still feel like a scared 10 year old calling for mommy and daddy. I just want my parents back.

 

Sorry to hear about the sudden passing of your father. I lost my mother suddenly in May. She was there at night and gone the next morning...

 

I'm sorry for your loss too. It's just so unreal. So many questions. I know it qomt bring him back and I know deep down they are questions that the answers wont take away the pain but...I just want to go back

 

Hi Lostgirl, I too am feeling like a "lost girl". My Father also passed recently and suddenly. I am early 30s myself and have not even married or had children yet and my father will not be present. It hurts badly. I have not slept well since he died a few weeks ago. Tonight I am really hurting. I just want to say I know how you feel.

 

It is the hardest thing in the world. They say the stronger the love, the stronger the grief. I dont know if mine could get any stronger.

 

I'm very sad to hear about your loss. My dad also passed away 2 weeks ago. He just won the battle against cancer. Had his last chemo a few weeks ago. We only brought him to the hospital to have his chemo port removed. He developed a fungal infection in his lungs while he was in there. They put him in a medically induced coma. One of the medications they were giving him caused his kidneys to shut down and he went into multiple organ failure. Cant wrap my head around it. So many what if we did this, what if we did that. I'm devastated.