Sudden and unexpected

Robin, woke up from sad dream that I was
at my college reunion ( which is strange
bc I wasn't planning to go to my 50th (!!)
in June, 2022). As I told you, I went to a
college in the Finger Lakes of upstate
NY, 6 hours away. A classmate ( who I didn't know, said that Saturday Night
Live was so much better & funnier in the
early 1970s, than it is now. I heartedly
agreed, mentioning Chevy Chase. John
Belushi, Jane Curtin, etc. The conversation
took a dark turn, when the classmate
asked how my wife was doing. I broke
down crying in the dream, and upon
waking up. I immediately checked on
GIC, praying it was finally up & running.
I said , Hallelujah, to myself when I saw
Karen and your email notifications, the
first since the rebooting. Like you, I had a
miserable late afternoon. on Halloween,
trying to get back on with my friends
The Grief Warriors ( TGW). I whined
to Karyn Arnold, voicing my fears and
insecurities that I was "kicked off" GIC.
She told me about the rebooting, and
she asked me to be patient, not my strong
suit. I told her I thought this was a Halloween prank, which was mean for
me to say, even though I was angry in my
frustration. Hope your headache gets better soon & that you can get some
sleep. Thank you so much. Your response
is the first one so far. I wrote to Deb,
George, Karen, & Stacey ( formerly
"Marcey"). I won't feel secure until all of them reply to me, like you did! Thank you
Robin! I won't feel safe until
all of them reply, like you did!! Lou

 

Hey Guys,

I decided to come back (to home/mom's). It got more painful to stay at the beach. So many tears the last 2 days. It's getting harder and harder to be without him. But I do feel like it was ultimately, a positive thing for me to have gone back there. But it was not fun or easy. Thank God for my boy (dog) Miles. What a comfort (and a helpful distraction). A possible positive....I'm getting really good at driving safely with tears streaming down my face. That's looking on the bright side, right? (what a sad life right now)

Wanted to say thank you (very much) to everyone who responded with compassion and encouragement. Deb, Lou, Robin, Gary..

I started reading posts that I've missed this weekend and got overwhelmed very quickly. But a few notes: George, I think our messages started the reality TV conversation. And I have to say that I've never watched ANY of the shows that all ya'll watch/watched! How is that possible?! Mine are actually much trashier (and embarrassing)! lol
Kardashians, Real Housewives,....okay those are the worst. Okay and Southern Charm (I can't help myself) We watched several seasons of Alone (fascinating), and The Amazing Race (there is a British version of Amazing Race that we had just watched 2 seasons of, here at mom's - we loved it). Used to watch Survivor but let that go years ago. Comedians In Cars Getting Coffee...isn't really reality show, more of a talk show...but I love it.
We watched Storage Wars (we watched a LOT of Storage Wars).
There. How shameful. I feel so dirty now. In Mark's defense, he did not watch the Kardashians or Housewives with me. That trash was all me.
I actually needed to type all that. A pleasant break from my torment.

Gary, wherever you said you are, sounds beautiful and therapeutic. I hope you can find some peace there. You mentioned South Park. I've only seen one episode, but it was a good one. The Make Love Not Warcraft episode. I watched it because I played World of Warcraft when it came out (my gamer friends had me watch it). I played it for years (so did Mark). I might have to start playing it again, to pass some painful hours. It's very (or it can be) immersive. (and a total waste of time, but then so is TV. The point of all of it is entertainment and a break from actual reality, though. Which can be a good and necessary thing - in small doses).

Lou, I hope you're feeling better? Lou and Robin...will the sun shine for you tomorrow? I hope so. And Deb too, right? Again, I'm jealous of your storms. But it Never Rains In California...except when it does.

Robin, how are you and Teddy healing?

I hope everyone got through the holiday alright. Halloween wasn't a big deal in our household. Thanksgiving and CHRISTMAS are the big ones for us (and Easter). So Halloween didn't make my day worse missing him. It was already horrible, but not because of the holiday. My dad's birthday is Oct 30th. He would have been 80, if I'm mathing correctly. Mark's birthday is coming up though. That's going to be awful. He would have been 65. He was so close.

We decided to not do trick-or-treaters. I'm too exhausted from grieving and I don't want mom opening the door to strangers (she can't see). So we left the lights off and the door locked. But, we had both purchased bags of candy. I guess I'll have to eat some...

I'm glad Halloween is over. Now I can decorate for Christmas. I wasn't sure if I could this year, but I love decorating and I think it will be a creative outlet for me. Might as well make my little home as cheerful as I can...even if I don't feel it. Maybe it will help.
I have to get in the mood though, for my kids and grandkids.
We were all supposed to go to an unnamed but extremely "magical" theme park for our family Christmas this year. We decided to go ahead with our family plans. So we will all be heading there the day after Christmas for most of the week. That's gonna be hard. Dad/Papa would have loved every minute. Being there without him is going to be so painful. But I have to do it for my family (kids & grandkids) We are all BIG Disney fans. .... oh... oops.

There's so much I want to respond to but I am falling asleep. Guess it's time to go. ♥ (went to bed without posting....Good Morning Everyone)

 

Hey Guys,

I decided to come back (to home/mom's). It got more painful to stay at the beach. So many tears the last 2 days. It's getting harder and harder to be without him. But I do feel like it was ultimately, a positive thing for me to have gone back there. But it was not fun or easy. Thank God for my boy (dog) Miles. What a comfort (and a helpful distraction). A possible positive....I'm getting really good at driving safely with tears streaming down my face. That's looking on the bright side, right? (what a sad life right now)

Wanted to say thank you (very much) to everyone who responded with compassion and encouragement. Deb, Lou, Robin, Gary..

I started reading posts that I've missed this weekend and got overwhelmed very quickly. But a few notes: George, I think our messages started the reality TV conversation. And I have to say that I've never watched ANY of the shows that all ya'll watch/watched! How is that possible?! Mine are actually much trashier (and embarrassing)! lol
Kardashians, Real Housewives,....okay those are the worst. Okay and Southern Charm (I can't help myself) We watched several seasons of Alone (fascinating), and The Amazing Race (there is a British version of Amazing Race that we had just watched 2 seasons of, here at mom's - we loved it). Used to watch Survivor but let that go years ago. Comedians In Cars Getting Coffee...isn't really reality show, more of a talk show...but I love it.
We watched Storage Wars (we watched a LOT of Storage Wars).
There. How shameful. I feel so dirty now. In Mark's defense, he did not watch the Kardashians or Housewives with me. That trash was all me.
I actually needed to type all that. A pleasant break from my torment.

Gary, wherever you said you are, sounds beautiful and therapeutic. I hope you can find some peace there. You mentioned South Park. I've only seen one episode, but it was a good one. The Make Love Not Warcraft episode. I watched it because I played World of Warcraft when it came out (my gamer friends had me watch it). I played it for years (so did Mark). I might have to start playing it again, to pass some painful hours. It's very (or it can be) immersive. (and a total waste of time, but then so is TV. The point of all of it is entertainment and a break from actual reality, though. Which can be a good and necessary thing - in small doses).

Lou, I hope you're feeling better? Lou and Robin...will the sun shine for you tomorrow? I hope so. And Deb too, right? Again, I'm jealous of your storms. But it Never Rains In California...except when it does.

Robin, how are you and Teddy healing?

I hope everyone got through the holiday alright. Halloween wasn't a big deal in our household. Thanksgiving and CHRISTMAS are the big ones for us (and Easter). So Halloween didn't make my day worse missing him. It was already horrible, but not because of the holiday. My dad's birthday is Oct 30th. He would have been 80, if I'm mathing correctly. Mark's birthday is coming up though. That's going to be awful. He would have been 65. He was so close.

We decided to not do trick-or-treaters. I'm too exhausted from grieving and I don't want mom opening the door to strangers (she can't see). So we left the lights off and the door locked. But, we had both purchased bags of candy. I guess I'll have to eat some...

I'm glad Halloween is over. Now I can decorate for Christmas. I wasn't sure if I could this year, but I love decorating and I think it will be a creative outlet for me. Might as well make my little home as cheerful as I can...even if I don't feel it. Maybe it will help.
I have to get in the mood though, for my kids and grandkids.
We were all supposed to go to an unnamed but extremely "magical" theme park for our family Christmas this year. We decided to go ahead with our family plans. So we will all be heading there the day after Christmas for most of the week. That's gonna be hard. Dad/Papa would have loved every minute. Being there without him is going to be so painful. But I have to do it for my family (kids & grandkids) We are all BIG Disney fans. .... oh... oops.

There's so much I want to respond to but I am falling asleep. Guess it's time to go. ♥ (went to bed without posting....Good Morning Everyone)

 

Robin,

Running late for an appointment, but will be back later. I hope the issues with this site are fixed ASAP!!! You are such a kind, caring person, reaching out to me when you weren't feeling well. I hope you're feeling much better this morning!!! More I want to say to you, but have to go.

As always, sending you hugs, wishing you peace, all of us peace. DEB

 

That happens when we rely so much on internets as opposed to face-to-face contact but I totally get we are all in different states so at least we can communicate which is the important thing. I was wondering why this site seemed so different today! Take care and talk to ya later muh friend!

 

Good Morning Lou,
Thank you for answering, it does feel a bit lonely with no one on here. I’m thankful I left this page open on my iPad, that’s the only reason I can answer you. I’m keeping your reply open on my phone and answering on my iPad. I did contact Karyn this morning, no answer yet. Plus I’m not sure it sent.
I’m so sorry for that bad dream. More like a nightmare. They’re so real and so upsetting. I’m glad my email gave you some hope even if it was mostly complaining about the site. FYI, there’s a good chance I won’t be able to get back in later today. Dreams like that are horrible. Reminds me of shortly after my Dad passed away , July of ‘94. I was walking into a video store. Remember those? I wanted to get something to ease my mind, I didn’t think I could live a day without him. As I’m walking in someone I went to school with is walking in too. She comes over to say hi and ask how I’m doing. Not really wanting to go there about my Dad, I answered I’m ok. And she shot back, ok you say you’re ok, what kind of answer is that. Lou, I started bawling, it’s bringing tears now too actually. Any way she realized she hit a nerve. And came over to hug me and ask what’s wrong. I told her that my Dad had just passed. She was apologetic, but too late. Got back in my car and drove home. Your bad dream made me think of that day. Maybe you needed a good cry to help you move forward. Maybe me too because that memory made me cry all these years later.
When you get the email notice does it work for you? They’re saying unknown address for me when I hit the button. I tried to make it nice and inviting for kids here yesterday. Since Ron has passed I’ve set up a bowl of treat bags with a sign to please take one. It’s worked fine until this year. I had 20 bags and on my camera I saw 4 kids, I was out with my daughter Stacey. I saw they each took multiple bags. Then I see a Mom with her young daughter, and the Mom took 3! It’s just candy but it made me feel upset on how kids are being raised today. My kids wouldn’t do that.
Weather feels cold here today, I’m guessing for you too. I am happy to not have rain though. I planned to write Stacey after the update finished but I haven’t been able to.
If you don’t hear back from me, know that I’m ok just frustrated with the site. My headache is gone and I did get some sleep last night. Teddy is healing and he’s sleeping better too. He goes back on Thursday to get the stitches out.
We’ll do our best to keep each other company until the site is running smooth again. Hopefully others can get on and leave messages too.
Take care Lou. Robin

Still no response from Karyn, I’m guessing my message didn’t send. It takes many tries before it goes.

 

Good Morning Lou,
Thank you for answering, it does feel a bit lonely with no one on here. I’m thankful I left this page open on my iPad, that’s the only reason I can answer you. I’m keeping your reply open on my phone and answering on my iPad. I did contact Karyn this morning, no answer yet. Plus I’m not sure it sent.
I’m so sorry for that bad dream. More like a nightmare. They’re so real and so upsetting. I’m glad my email gave you some hope even if it was mostly complaining about the site. FYI, there’s a good chance I won’t be able to get back in later today. Dreams like that are horrible. Reminds me of shortly after my Dad passed away , July of ‘94. I was walking into a video store. Remember those? I wanted to get something to ease my mind, I didn’t think I could live a day without him. As I’m walking in someone I went to school with is walking in too. She comes over to say hi and ask how I’m doing. Not really wanting to go there about my Dad, I answered I’m ok. And she shot back, ok you say you’re ok, what kind of answer is that. Lou, I started bawling, it’s bringing tears now too actually. Any way she realized she hit a nerve. And came over to hug me and ask what’s wrong. I told her that my Dad had just passed. She was apologetic, but too late. Got back in my car and drove home. Your bad dream made me think of that day. Maybe you needed a good cry to help you move forward. Maybe me too because that memory made me cry all these years later.
When you get the email notice does it work for you? They’re saying unknown address for me when I hit the button. I tried to make it nice and inviting for kids here yesterday. Since Ron has passed I’ve set up a bowl of treat bags with a sign to please take one. It’s worked fine until this year. I had 20 bags and on my camera I saw 4 kids, I was out with my daughter Stacey. I saw they each took multiple bags. Then I see a Mom with her young daughter, and the Mom took 3! It’s just candy but it made me feel upset on how kids are being raised today. My kids wouldn’t do that.
Weather feels cold here today, I’m guessing for you too. I am happy to not have rain though. I planned to write Stacey after the update finished but I haven’t been able to.
If you don’t hear back from me, know that I’m ok just frustrated with the site. My headache is gone and I did get some sleep last night. Teddy is healing and he’s sleeping better too. He goes back on Thursday to get the stitches out.
We’ll do our best to keep each other company until the site is running smooth again. Hopefully others can get on and leave messages too.
Take care Lou. Robin

Still no response from Karyn, I’m guessing my message didn’t send. It takes many tries before it goes.

 

Good Morning Lou,
Thank you for answering, it does feel a bit lonely with no one on here. I’m thankful I left this page open on my iPad, that’s the only reason I can answer you. I’m keeping your reply open on my phone and answering on my iPad. I did contact Karyn this morning, no answer yet. Plus I’m not sure it sent.
I’m so sorry for that bad dream. More like a nightmare. They’re so real and so upsetting. I’m glad my email gave you some hope even if it was mostly complaining about the site. FYI, there’s a good chance I won’t be able to get back in later today. Dreams like that are horrible. Reminds me of shortly after my Dad passed away , July of ‘94. I was walking into a video store. Remember those? I wanted to get something to ease my mind, I didn’t think I could live a day without him. As I’m walking in someone I went to school with is walking in too. She comes over to say hi and ask how I’m doing. Not really wanting to go there about my Dad, I answered I’m ok. And she shot back, ok you say you’re ok, what kind of answer is that. Lou, I started bawling, it’s bringing tears now too actually. Any way she realized she hit a nerve. And came over to hug me and ask what’s wrong. I told her that my Dad had just passed. She was apologetic, but too late. Got back in my car and drove home. Your bad dream made me think of that day. Maybe you needed a good cry to help you move forward. Maybe me too because that memory made me cry all these years later.
When you get the email notice does it work for you? They’re saying unknown address for me when I hit the button. I tried to make it nice and inviting for kids here yesterday. Since Ron has passed I’ve set up a bowl of treat bags with a sign to please take one. It’s worked fine until this year. I had 20 bags and on my camera I saw 4 kids, I was out with my daughter Stacey. I saw they each took multiple bags. Then I see a Mom with her young daughter, and the Mom took 3! It’s just candy but it made me feel upset on how kids are being raised today. My kids wouldn’t do that.
Weather feels cold here today, I’m guessing for you too. I am happy to not have rain though. I planned to write Stacey after the update finished but I haven’t been able to.
If you don’t hear back from me, know that I’m ok just frustrated with the site. My headache is gone and I did get some sleep last night. Teddy is healing and he’s sleeping better too. He goes back on Thursday to get the stitches out.
We’ll do our best to keep each other company until the site is running smooth again. Hopefully others can get on and leave messages too.
Take care Lou. Robin

Still no response from Karyn, I’m guessing my message didn’t send. It takes many tries before it goes. Oh, just got a response. She says it’s the first real update since this site was created. I guess that’s why the others didn’t cause this issue. She thanked me for letting her know how it’s reacting and said they’re still working it. It’ll be running well soon.

 

Okay, well there was NO indication that any of these posts went through, so I posted on the other thread too. Apparently it went through 4 freaking times.
Sorry everyone.

This is more frustration than I can handle right now...so I'll not be posting for a while.

 

I got your posts! Video Stores OMG! Crazy! I remember before Before Times all too well. Treat or tickers ha didn't have any!

 

Sorry about sending so many times. I’m kind of done for now. Frustrating.

 

TO ALL TGW,

I'm way beyond frustrated, TU!!! I miss all of you, and can't imagine going the entire day without "talking" to you. I hope the issue with this site gets resolved ASAP, TU!!! I can't do it now, turning into a very busy, miserable day, but as soon as I can, I'll contact Karen Arnold too. Is there a certain email address I should use to reach her directly?

I hope everyone is doing okay, has at least one reason to LMSO today...

As always, sending you hugs, wishing you peace, all of us peace. DEB

 

Hi Deb, I’ve been in touch with Karyn multiple times. She said her technician says everything should be up and running as normal. And asked for specific problems. As I mentioned before I’m not sure how I got here. Just kept clicking around. If you want to contact her go to the bottom of the page and click on contact. It will go direct to her. She is very apologetic for the issues and trying to work it out.
I hope everyone is well and managing through this.
And that it’s fixed soon. Robin

 

Stacey, I love how you came up with your name on here. Perfect. My daughters name is Stacey, spelled the same. My name on here RLC, Ron and I have the same initials and I wanted to honor him. To me it’s his initials. I don’t know if you went back home or not but I hope you’re feeling some better. I haven’t found your other posts as of yet. One day at a time! Robin

 

Stacey,
Not sure where to start. I guess with Teddy. He’s healing and it’s looking much better he goes back on Thursday to get the stitches removed. And he’s finally sleeping better so I am too. I’m glad you made that trip and made back home safe. I didn’t drive for months after Ron passed. I didn’t trust myself. I kind of ran through a light with my daughter in the car. She was like, ok you’re not driving for a while. It made sense snd I didn’t drive for quite a while. My daughter had moved back in with me so she drove. Reality tv, since Ron passed Ive become addicted to 90 Day fiancé. My daughter and I, we feel embarrassed that we watch it. Haha.
I’m hoping your Disney trip, oops I said it too. I hope it’s good for you. We’re HUGE Disney fans too. Ron and I took our kids there almost every year snd then if we didn’t go to the beach for our anniversary we went to Disney World. I had to cancel a trip we had booked, it was for 2 months after Ron passed. I have been back. My kids took me for what would have been our 41st anniversary. It was hard. Lots of crying. I saw Rons hand reach out to help me off the tram like he always did. I was crying my eyes out. But also was a sign he was with me. And approved. We went again last year for what would have been our next anniversary too. And we planned to go this coming Jan but that’s yet to be seen. My daughters puppy is having a few issues with new people so we’re working on socializing him so he can go in the kennel. I’m assuming you go to Disney Land. We were planning a trip to visit that park, not sure if that will happen now though.
We didn’t really celebrate Halloween either but Ron did love seeing the children in their costumes and handing the candy out. This year and since rin passed I put a bowl out of candy. But this year 4 kids took almost all I put out. I saw it on my camera while I was at my daughters. Makes me sad how kids are being brought up these days.
My house was always the go to for the holidays and I wanted to keep it that way. And even told my family that. But it has t happened. So we celebrate but holidays are hard without our spouses and harder when people say they’ll come but then change their plans. Not sure what we’ll be doing this year. But I’m glad you think you might decorate. For me it helps to a point snd then it’s also very sad. But I’ve made thanksgiving dinner each year and put up a tree. My son came the first Christmas snd was here for the first thanksgiving because it was only days after Ron passed.
Ok I think I’ll try to post this. And get myself busy.
Take care, Robin

 

Robin,

If you see this, thank you!! I sent Karyn a message, but not sure she'll get it. Plus I'm so technically challenged, I'm not sure how to explain all the issues since the reboot. I miss all of you so much, TU!!! Hope this gets resolved soon.... I'm feeling so much more lonely..., sad..., lost, without being able to "talk" to TGW,,,

Sending you and Teddy lots of hugs, wishing you peace, all of us peace. DEB

 

Deb, I got the email and read your post there. It took me quite a while in order to get here to be able to write you. And there’s so many step involved to get here I don’t even know how I got here. I’m feeling so bad for new people signing up and this is going on. It’s upsetting to us imagine if you found this site today. I’m glad you wrote Karyn, I plan to write her again. In my opinion it got worse since this afternoon. I miss our everyday check on each other and help each other. And now Lou is missing altogether. I hope it’s frustration but that he’s ok. As long as you let Karyn know the site isnt working that’s enough. You’re in my prayers as are everyone else. Thank you for the hugs, Teddy is healing nicely. One week today and I’m feeling so much better now it’s over and his test shows no cancer.
This site has helped each of us so much the loss of it working correct is difficult for us. More lonely. I’m trying to think positive that it will be working better tomorrow.
I hope you’re able to rest this evening. Robin

 

Robin,

I'm teary eyed just being able to connect with you, TU!!! I sent Karyn a second message. I'm glad you're going to send her another one. I hope she gets the messages we're sending. You and all the GIC friends I've made, are helping me get through this so much, I can't even begin to find the words to let you know how grateful I am for each and every one of you...

I really needed TGW today... Not only was today a very difficult day for me in many ways, but it ended on a horrible note too. Mail delivery was late. I got an EOB from medicare for Bob's last night/early morning stay in the ER. It was over $22,000, and that is just a portion of it, mostly for drugs. It either didn't process correctly, or wasn't submitted to his supplemental insurance carrier, because according to the EOB, I'm supposed to pick up most of the tab. NO WAY, TU!!! I stuck it in a plastic shoe box (it's so full that I'm going to have to start filling up another one soon) where I've been keeping all of the unpaid bills and Medicare EOBs. I'm not going to worry about it. I'm going to let the hospital and the insurance companies fight it out (at least for now.) They know where to find me... Sometimes I'll get an EOB where hardly anything was paid, and a month or two later, another EOB for the same claim, only it's been reprocessed, and paid. So, for now, I'm going to try to think positive thoughts.... and keep saying over and over and over and over again to myself, that somehow this will all work out. Maybe in time, I'll actually get myself to start believing this. No need to respond!!! It helps just knowing you understand. Thanks for "listening."

Backing way up, if I tried to sign up for this site today, I would have given up and probably wouldn't have tried again. I can't even begin to imagine how the new people feel... I feel like all of you are my life preserver, and without you, I feel like I'm sinking deeper and deeper into this loneliness... My heart goes out to each and every new person who has tried to sign up the past couple of days... I hope they stick with us.

On to much better things... I'm so HAPPY!!! to hear that Teddy is cancer free, and the healing process is going well. Your timing was perfect!!! I needed to hear some good news today!!! Thanks so much for getting me to smile... Smiles are another thing I'll never take for granted again, TU!!!

I hope Lou is okay too. I tried posting to his profile page, and even starting a conversation, hoping he might be able to see at least one of these things. I hope everyone else is okay too.... I'm especially worried about Patti, and I'm hoping in time, she'll be back. However, I'm glad she doesn't have to deal with this "reboot." You and everyone here are always in my prayers too... I hope you'll be able to get a good night's rest knowing that Teddy is okay.

I'm going to try to follow your advice, think positive thoughts, that when we wake up tomorrow, we'll all be able to be together again.

I hope both you and Teddy get some quality sleep tonight....

As always, sending lots of hugs to you and Teddy, wishing you peace, all of us peace. DEB

 

Oh Deb, wow what a day you’ve had. I know that Karyn got my message because she answered it and said they’re working on it and hoped to have things running smooth today. Well that didn’t happen but they’re trying.
I know exactly how you felt with that mail today. It happened to me. I got a notice that Rons insurance wasn’t covering any of the bill. I panicked just like you’re feeling. My notice came from the hospital and stated I had to pay in full. My daughter and I jumped in the car to talk to the finance office at the hospital. But when we got there they were closed. Long story short we eventually talked to them and we were told not to panic and it still needs to be processed. And it was mostly covered. So I think you’re right to think positive. I feel confident it will work out. It’s so much coming at us from every which way after losing our spouses, it’s overwhelming. We’re mourning and the paperwork that starts coming in the loneliness the take care of everything on our own etc etc etc. I know I started to shut down and just did nothing. I wasn’t sleeping or eating and didn’t want to look at the mail. I got out of bed because of Ted, and also my daughter moved in with me and worked from my house. So yes, I understand and feel for you. I didn’t even put them all in a box like you are. I just made piles. But in my heart I do think this will work out. But it sure can be stressful in the meantime. You’re so right about smiles. And yet I sometimes still feel guilt about smiling. Silly I know but I happens. I recall my daughter wanting me to smile fir a picture and it was forced. I look at those pictures and I’m obviously sad. But a real smile feels good in the end. We all need that.
I hope all our friends are back tomorrow with this site hopefully working correct.
I’m sorry I didn’t get back to you faster, it’s such a job trying to find posts etc. I’m glad we have been able to connect at least. It’s been good for me too, so thank you for that. I hope you’re resting and feeling some peace after a rough day. I know that’s asking a lot but I pray you get some rest and when you see how it turned out for me with the bill that might help you feel better.
Talk in the morning, sleep well
Robin

 

Thank you Robin!

I'm so happy to hear that Teddy is doing that well. And that both of you are sleeping better. Sleep makes such a difference in how well we cope.

So far, I feel like I am able to drive safely. But if I wasn't able to, I would probably still have to drive. I would just slow down and go the long way around, I guess. Since my mom doesn't drive and our boys don't live with us, it's kind of up to me.
I'm glad your daughter is able to help you out that way. Good for her. ♥

I've never watched 90 Day Fiance, but what you said made me laugh. It can't possibly be worse than those awful Housewives though. lol Just enjoy it for what it is (a nice distraction) and don't worry. Many others watch it too or it wouldn't still be on! ♥

A fellow Disney addict?! That makes me so very happy!! I've had some reallllllly good Disney experiences (for a fanatic) if you ever want to hear them. I've gotten to do some pretty special Disney things. But yes, Disneyland is MY land (Walt even said so...in his opening day speech!). I've never been to WDW, though I've been invited numerous times. Mark couldn't go with me and I wasn't going to go without him. We will see how this goes in December. If I'm okay and it makes me feel better, I may go ahead and get my Magic Key (I have friends that go and I've gone with them on girls' trips lots of times over the last 20 years. Of course, now I would do anything to have that time back and not have forfeited ANY time at home with Mark for any reason at all. Oh how I wish we could go back and do things over again). Anyway, my friends still go. In fact, they just went to the Halloween event (Mickey's Not So Scary party) last night and were sending me pics. I was invited and passed. Too soon. So yes, I am a fairly hardcore fanatic..

I started this reply hours ago and just now was able to come back to it. I hope you had a very positive day and I hope you had a very restful night. ♥