It has been four and a half months since Sofia has been gone from me as is/was the future. I guess it never came to my mind that when I got up to New England, I would be as much alone as if I had remained in Florida I am quite sad and depressed. One sister tells me not to make the same mistakes again. I asked her to be more specific. "Older women." She said. So much for her knowing about her brother. I guess it is another hard truth I must learn, that Sometimes families are not very good with matters of grief at all. I really don't know what more can be said.
Your right families do not understand what we are going through. We always think they will be there for us without judgement but they are not. All my family can talk about is the car I went out and bought after my Johnny passed. They talk about behind my back. I hope you have atleast one understanding very good friend. I know without my friends I would not be here. They help me everyday. God bless
Thank you. I am sorry just have not been back here too much. Been going thru $$ to talk to a therapist as family does not want to talk at all. Got a nice friend bzck in FL. Maybe i shoulda stayed.father is so into religion but NOT God.says what he thinx is truth he so does not know The truth mean hurtfull words And likes to stick my past errors kn my face. God has been gr8 to me but religion up to my A- hole a good place for it. As long as God is in my ❤ that is all that matters.
