Yes, losing Sofia really hurt me. I don't know where on this journey I began to mourn not only my Dainty Dearness but my future with her as well. I know I was pretty badly messed up when Rosie passed away, she too was a wonderfull woman God had put in my life. We did not go out a lot but we had a great close relationship as she had some medical issues. Still tho we were very happy with each other and were so for 6 years. I think I may have had some serious emotional prob- lem as I woke one morning, sobbing and needed to talk to someone. Not family tho, Nope, I love them but their idea of things like this are so far apart from mine, that it is not worth talking about. I know I must press on but there are days I just don't give a hoot one way or the other and flat out wish I crossed the mafia and they took me out and not to the ball game either. But when I get my butt on a motorcycle the breeze on my kneeze will blow away bad thoughts, then I feel guilty about things and it takes work to know I did nothing to feel guilty about. Someone else here said," I don't think our brains were wired for loss of a loved one." Yes I so agree, our ❤'s. either.
