On October 7th, my entire world turned upside down. My husband of 29 years, my 11 year old son and I were vacationing on the beach. My husband and son were playing in the waves when they got caught in a strong riptide and undercurrent. They were pulled out to sea. I jumped in and I was able to save my young son, but my husband did not make it. He drowned. We were able to pull his body from the sea and start rescue attempts, but it was too late. I'm completely numb and paralized by the pain, fear and grief. I miss my husband so much. I really do not know how to go on. My son needs me and I'm being strong for him, but inside I'm dying. I cannot believe that this happened. I don't understand it and I just want to wake from this nightmare. I love him so much. I miss his hugs, his kisses, his witty humor and his presence. I will never be the same again.
I am so sorry for your loss. It is never easy to lose someone we love but when it happens suddenly we are also forced to cope with the trauma as well as the loss, and it can make it very hard to even process what has happened. It is extra challenging when we're trying to care for a child and be strong, and it's wonderful that you are finding avenues to get your own support. It's such an important thing to do, and I have an article from our blog that speaks to some of this: https://www.griefincommon.com/blog/caring-for-children-after-loss/. I hope it can be a help. In the meanwhile, I'm so glad that you are here and I'm hoping you can find some of the support and comfort you need. We're here to help~
I am sorry to hear about the sudden loss of your husband. You are correct in saying that you will never be the same. You will also never "get over it" as some would expect us to be. I hope you find this site helpful.
