My mom passed away 2 weeks ago. I wish I could say it was an accidental overdose....but she had text my grandmother a few days before hand and said her goodbyes to her. My mom and I didn't have the best of relationships because I didn't meet her till I was 15. My dad got custody of me when I was little and kept me from her. My mom had several health issues and had been in and out of the hospital for years. Recently she had chosen to be homeless with her druggy boyfriend then to let us take care of her. I feel so guilty not knowing things had gotten so bad for her. Her birthday was on August 14th. I wished her happy birthday and whent about my buisy day not knowing that would be the last time I talked to her. My grandma called me on that friday, no joke right before I was getting ready for the rehearsal dinner for my dads wedding, to inform me that she had passed. It was so hard for me to smile at my dads wedding and unfortunately I left right after the ceremony. I have been out of work because I don't know how to be ok, if that makes sense. I am so hurt and confused. I tried to go back to work two days ago but keep getting panic attacks. I am afraid of loosing my job, but I can't seem to "get over" that she is gone. I am 27 and I lost my mom. How does one heal from that?
Sorry to hear about your mother. It sounds like she had many problems - physical and emotional. We can't help what other people do - which leaves us feeling helpless and powerless. I know it sounds like the obvious, but perhaps a counselor could help with your panic attacks and getting back to work.
My dad passed away 2 weeks ago. He went through 5 months of aggressive chemo. He had his last chemo and we found out he was in remission. We brought him to the hospital to have his port removed, but his immune system was still compromised from chemo and he developed an infection while he was in there. They put him in a medically induced coma to do a bronchoscopy and he never woke up. One of the were giving him shut his kidneys down and he went into multiple organ failure. Just can't wrap my head around it. I'm devastated. I understand what you're going through. If you'd like to talk...I'm here.
