I miss her so much

Alone and forsaken by fate and by man oh Lord if you hear me please take my hand. A good song about suffering do to losing a mate which Hank Williams senior was famous for. Lou you’ll know when your cold is breaking up because the phlegm is so thick you have to cut it with a steak knife to get it out of your throat. I agree with younger brother George your posts have more zest in them. Karen glad to hear you’ve got the power! I’m so lonesome I could cry. Another of Hank’s songs of misery. I’ve been doing zoom meetings today and have enjoyed interactions with my fellow humanoids. But I am very lonely missing my cheerful Cheryl. I was listening to “how many more times” by Led Zeppelin and at the end Robert Plant asks “why don’t you please come home” 4 times in succession. I asked Cheryl why don’t you please come home and realized she was already here. I came to grief puckered my lips closed my eyes and said kiss me. Rick you’re going to have to be extra careful older brother. Make sure there are no tripping hazards in your hallways. Beware of lose rugs. Wear tennis shoes. Keep your cell phone charged and close by. Don’t lose your awareness. I’m glad you’re going to start in person grief meetings soon. Keep talking to us Bro. Let the countdown begin and lets get the heck out of 2021!!! Gary

 

Gary, I made Robin & Karen laugh with my
immature jokes about phlegm ( on a par
with fart jokes-----"guy humor"). Linda was
special, bc she had worked with irreverent
engineers in the high tech world, so these
jokes didn't offend her. One time, I showed
her my multicolored phlegm. She looked
at me, and said, "YUMMY!!!",and we both
cracked up. I still chuckle at the memory
today. Hope you are well, middle brother.
I know you & Rick have been in touch. I hope he'll reply to me. I told him I'd given
up drinking, & he's still grappling with it,
home and alone. Lou

 

To Everyone,

I'm back from my road trip. It was extremely bittersweet!!!, TU!!!, but spending some quality time with my son was the absolute best Christmas gift!!! Way too many tears..., but also lots of laughs... Being surrounded by the ocean made me cry big time, but and this is another one of those really BIG BUTS!!!, it felt really good to be near the water again. Dropped my son off at the airport, can't stop crying... The house seems so much more lonely now... I can't imagine Bob not being here in 2022... I need a case of tissues tonight... Going to take a hot shower, veg out on the couch, watch the flickering flame on the candle on my coffee table, a box of tissues my only companion, with a cup of herbal tea...

I have way too much catching up to do around here!!!, TU!!! I briefly skimmed some of the messages. I'm so sorry Mr. Grief hit TGW full force this holiday season... Praying with all my heart, 2022 is a better year for all of us...

Lou, feel better ASAP!!! BTW, those comments about phlegm sound like they could have come right out of Bob's mouth. I'm sure he would have had to add something to what everyone had to say.
Karen, I can't imagine what it was like for you being without power, alone, without Jack... So glad your power has been restored!!!, TU!!!
George, I totally "get" it. BTW, I would love!!! caramel praline ice cream... At least you attacked the carton, IMHO, with one of the best flavors... So sorry the world just SUCKS!!! right now...
Robin, I didn't read everything yet, so I hope you're not sick too!!!, TU!!! Hope your daughter is bringing you things so you don't have to go outside in the cold. I'm so happy for you, that you have your daughter living so close to you, and is always here for you.
Gary, I thought I read somewhere that you were having some problems with a uncooperative snowblower... The winter really does SUCK BIG TIME!!!, TU!!! Hope the issue has been resolved.
Chad and Rick, so sorry, you have had to join us, but it's nice having you here, although it just totally SUCKS!!!
Patti, I hope you're doing well, and have been able to either go for walks or to the gym to get some much needed exercise.
Stacey, I hope you're okay... but, no need to respond. I just want you to know I'm thinking about you if you read this.
I'm experiencing that extreme widow foggy brain thing, so to anyone I missed, or to anyone who arrived after I left with my son for our road trip, just as I said to Rick and Chad, I'm sorry you had to find us, but glad you're with us. I would have lost whatever little bit of sanity I have left, if it wasn't for TGW!!!, TU!!!

Sending lots of hugs, love, to all of TGW, and to Rambo, JayCee, Teddy, Miles (if I forgot any of our furry family members, I'm blaming it on this foggy widow brain.

Need another tissue, and that hot shower... and George, I wish you could send some of that caramel praline ice cream my way... DEB

 

Deb, I think I can speak for everyone here
that it is great to have you back on GIC,
after your beautiful, but bittersweet journey with your son. I'm proud of you
for embracing the ocean again. You add so
much kindness and humor to our group,
with your famous funny phrases, wbich I
quoted in your absence! Well, time for
early sleep. My days of staying up late and
drinking, on New Year's Eve,are long gone,
and I'm healthier mentally & physically
now. May we all have a Happier & Healthier New Year. Lou

 

Welcome back, Deb I’m so glad to hear you had a nice holiday with your son, you deserved it. What a year. ~Bernadine

 

I’ve been parking as far away from stores as I can to force myself to walk. Brisk and bright but I still prefer sitting inside looking out. All of me feels tired. Grief is exhausting.~B

 

Gosh Lou you’ve had a time of it. Sounds like you’re doing better though. Do you have tele-health? A video appointment with a nurse so you wouldn’t have to go in? Just a thought. ~B

 

No matter where he was Kenn always played Auld Lang Syne on his horn at the stroke of midnight. Even if it was just a step out on the front porch. Blow into the night…
Traditions, more than I realized. It will, again, be awfully quiet tonight. ~Bernadine

 

No Tele-health,Gary. But, all phlegm jokes
aside ( & I'm glad Deb is back to laugh at
them), I really think I'm turning the
corner on this thing. I'll let everyone on
GIC know on Mon. In the meantime, a
Happier & Healthier New Year for all of us.
Lou

 

Thank you for sharing that bittersweet
musical moment about Kenn. Linda & I
would've loved to meet you & Kenn &
heard him play. Hope you sleep well tonight. I'm about to go to bed. Talk
tomorrow. Lou

 

Like Karen mentioned, I’m not sure Ron would join this site either. But he would like the guy humor. I agree he would get along with you all.

 

Deb,
I’m glad you had some happy times and laughter, mixed in with the bittersweet. I know the ocean carries so many memories, but I’m glad it felt good to by the water again. I know after being away, just how empty and quiet your home feels. it feels worse.
Thank you for your concern but I’m not sick, just bring extra careful. So many people are sick and not staying home like Lou is. My daughter is here with me tonight, had a relaxing quiet day and evening.
Wishing you and everyone a better New Year!!
Robin

 

wishing everyone a better new year.
Blessings, Patti

 

Thank you, my dear friend Patti, one of the
kindest, bravest, most spiritual people I
know. I've prayed to God more, since
Linda"s death 3 years ago. I can relate to
Robin, bc her husband, Ron. died in the
same time frame. I"m praying right now for God to let me walk outside in His
natural beauty. Most of all, I'm praying to
God a prayer of gratitude for being alive,
in a quiet, warm apartment, in a beautiful
town. Linda never knew any of the people
from this town, so I can start anew. Finally, I pray to God that our GW friends,
have a Happy & Healthy New Year !! Lou

 

Robin, just woke up unexpectedly & saw you, Bernadine, and Patti. Thank you for praising me for staying at home, not
getting any sicker, and/ or spreading what looks like Omicron. Thank you,
again, for tea , with honey idea. Did your
your daughter remember to buy BIGELOW herbal tea? I'm eating a lot of
Amy's GF soups, oranges, etc. I will bake
chicken thighs when I'm more hungry.
Lou

 

Well Lou she would have gotten the tea if I remembered to put it on her list. That would have been nice to have. You sound like you might be feeling some better, hope that continues today. You’re welcome, glad the tea/honey may have helped and. You could add it to your list. So many people think nothing of spreading what they’re suffering with. You do deserve praise for staying in. My daughters best friend, who lost her husband tragically in a car accident 4 years ago, and her 6 yr old daughter tested positive for covid on Wed AM. They both feel better already thankfully and will get tested again tomorrow before work or school.
Continue to feel better. Robin

 

Thank you so much, Robin. You brightened
what looks like another gray, dreary day.
Days like this make me sleep more, which
is a good thing, to knock this Omicron out
of my system. I believe young children were never really seriously affected by
the original COVID strains, enough to
warrant staying home from school. But, I
do remember the days of staying home,
if I had the flu, or even, the "common cold".
So, that said, since your friends are not
elderly, I think they will emerge from this
OK. Even if I don't want to go outside
right now, it would still be nice to look out
my window, at a sunny, blue sky again. L

 

Yay itz Deb! Yes Caramal and praline IC was the best yesterday for lunch and dinner... and after dinner was dinner dinner of microwave Quesadillas. Now as I await snowPocalypse to bear down. Lot of waiting today! Welcome back The Deb!

 

You’re welcome Lou. Glad to bring a smile for you. I’m so tired of these continuing rainy, gray days. One after another. I don’t see sunny blue skies in the near future either. I know that would brighten your day. The friends who tested positive are feeling fine after 2 days. Had a slight fever, cough and achy. I’m hoping her parents don’t get it. They were together when they were probably contagious. Praying for blue skies. Robin

 

Thank you Deb for the welcome. I am very glad I found this group and it does totally suck that I had to. Hope everyone that is sick gets better soon. All this talk of herbal tea made me want a bit. Lizzy was the tea drinker here and she still had some Bigelow cozy chamomile. No honey though, she hated honey haha. I was feeling sad when I woke but reading everyone's comments and drinking this tea out Lizzy's favorite cup for tea has made me feel a bit better. Thank you everyone.

-Chad