Today Has Made One Whole Month. One Month Of Not Hearing His Voice , Seeing His Face , Listening To His Jokes , Eating His Cooking , Today Has Been A Whole Month Of My New "Normal" Today Has Been A Whole Month And It Doesn't Hurt Any Less, I Didn't "Ease " Just A Little , & While Everyone Went Back To Their Daily Life , I'm Still Sitting Here Constantly Reliving That Day & This Whole Month. I Miss My Dad So MUCH . I Try To Think Of Our GoodTimes And Smile But The Pain Always Overshadows It, I Don't Want Memories, I Want Him.
I'm so sorry for your loss! On Sept 7, I suffered through the one month mark since my husband died. I agree with you, it wasn't any easier, or less painful. I think it was actually even harder because I'm not in shock any more. I relived every detail of that day, but even more attuned to the little things. And like you said, it seems everybody else is going about life like any normal day. I guess for them it is a normal day. I wish I could tell you that it will get better, but I'm new at this too. I tend to stay in a moment of anger, sadness, or numb. I wish for peace and healing for you.
It has been 9 weeks for me. We are all in early grief. It takes time and lots of grieving to get through. I agree with the above poster that the grief is worst now because the numbness has worn off. The only thing I know is t o do therapy to let the grief out in a safe environment, journal letters to him, visit graves to talk and grieve at night. I know it gets better because I have gone through this before.
Sorry to hear about your father. I lost my mother suddenly in May. I'm not sure that it ever gets "easier". I think the best we can do is adapt. I hope being able to vent here will be helpful.
