i lost my father 2 years ago suddenly . Some might say he was just my dad but he was my best friend and my world .. I never really dealt with the pain and recently it’s all been consuming me and I’m looking for guidence to get through the pain .. im so angry and so miserable without him here I’m just waking around lost trying to cling to anyone or anything to fill the hole that I now have in my heart ... I just miss my best friend
Sorry to hear about your father. If the grief is overwhelming you, then perhaps seeing a therapist/counselor would help.
I have found you have to do the grieving to integrate the loss. The consuming of your life is that grieving. I have found journalibf, group and individual tgerapy, blogging, rituals (eg wearing his stuff, visiting graves) helps to integrate the loss. To always keep him close, I plan on getting two small tattoos: a Lenape tribe turtle and an Osage tribe spider.
I can empathize with your pain. I lost my dad suddenly, seven years ago now, and my heart breaks just writing that... I can’t believe so much time has passed without him. Time doesn't seem to dull pain and sadness, it’s hard to explain to someone who hasn’t been through a similar experience, how with one memory I have to relive the fact that I can’t pick up the phone and talk with him. Time moves and life is good in many ways but the emptiness left will always be there.
So sorry about your loss. I truly do feel your pain. I just lost my dad on Oct. 18th and I too feel totally lost without him. Besides missing him terribly I'm trying to deal with my mom who seems "over it" already. I know people deal with grief in different ways but I am really struggling to understand her way. My friends are trying to "be there for me", which I appreciate, but most haven't been through what I'm going through so they don't truly understand. My best advice is do what you need to do for you. For me, I talk to him every day. I tell him how much I love and miss him. If you ever need someone to listen, feel free to reach out. Believe me, I know how lonely it can feel when no one in your circle understands what you're going through. *hugs*
My father died of a heart attack in September. That is somehow easy to say. How I feel about that? There aren’t any words. You’re not alone.
