My husband, Bob, was the victim of a homicide, on July 2, 2017, so this is a recent loss. We were legally separated, but lived a half a block apart. In these later years we had developed a close friendship/companionship, and he was my support system through a number of health issues and the death of my younger sister in November, 2016. My mother is in hospice care, and I have been her main caregiver for the 10 years before hospice. My son and daughter-in-law have been very supportive, but my son has his own grief to deal with as well. I feel totally unmoored and lost. I can't see any way forward. The death of my sister and my husband within the past nine months has been just too much. My sister died of metastasized breast cancer. She lived in Ohio, and I have spent the last nine years travelling back and forth to Ohio to be with her after treatments and surgeries. I was with her through home hospice, residential hospice and on through her death and funeral services. My husband was my main support through all of this. He did as much to help me as he possibly could, including taking care of my house and my cats. He helped me with so much that I could not do for myself, and now there is no one. All I can think about is how lonely every single day is without him. My sister is the person I would have turned to for consolation, and she is dead as well. I am now facing the death of my mother sometime relatively soon. I feel that I have been inundated with sorrow. I am drowning and can't figure out a way to help myself.