This August 2018, it will be 14 years since my Mom passed. I still miss her so much that sometimes my heart physically hurts and it’s hard to breathe. My life has never been the same. Her bedroom is empty, the house is too quiet. I dream of her most nights and when I wake up the next morning I think I need to tell her about the dream and then I remember she’s not here anymore. I was her caretaker for the last 10 years of her life and when she left me I felt like half of me went with her and I know I have a giant hole in my heart. I miss her laughter and our chats and watching tv together, going shopping together, going to the movies together. There are so many other things about her that I miss. I still cry everyday and people tell me I need to move on with my life but I’m still lost without her and there is no moving on for me. I feel like a shadow of what I once was.