Loss of my beautiful 12 year old

Discussion in 'Loss of Child' started by seimone, Dec 28, 2016.

  1. seimone

    seimone New Member

    Hi Family,
    My name is Seimone. I lost my only daughter on December 1st of last year to stage 4 Lupus. I'm still on disbelief and in a constant depression. I look forward to being apart of your support group as I learn to live a new life.
     
  2. PhyllisG

    PhyllisG Active Member

    Seimone, I am so very sorry for the loss of your daughter. It was just this past June when I lost my son to another disease - addiction. While it's only been a little over 6 months, there are still times when I wake up in the morning and my first thought is that my baby is no longer here and I simply cannot believe this is my new reality. I hope you keep checking in here and saying lots of prayers in search of the strength to accept this reality and move forward in living a new life. You will be in my prayers.
     
  3. seimone

    seimone New Member

    PhillisG
    Thank you for those words of encouragement. I am so lost right now. I'm praying daily for peace and acceptance. Not a day pass that I'm not crying and sobbing for my angel. Thank you so much. Look forward to talking with you and others. I'm so sorry for your lost. I will be praying for you as well. I know exactly how you feel and how much it hurt. I live through it myself everyday. We must stay strong and keep praying for peace and understanding. Hope to hear from you soon.
     
  4. PhyllisG

    PhyllisG Active Member

    Seimone I hope you are trying your best to hang in there. Some days are just going to be hard. But you can do it. My faith keeps me going usually but there are times I feel like I just exist. My Joey would have been 27 years old coming up on April 3rd. Struggling with that but I'm gonna make it. Please let me know how you are doing soon if you can. God bless.
     
  5. Carol B

    Carol B New Member

    My son Danny would be 29 last week. Even though he's been dead 8 years, it sometimes feels like he's dying all over again. I wake up in the middle of the night with awful memories of his suffering and humiliations that the disease caused and I cant get back to sleep and I'm haunted for days.

    I just miss him so much. And I'm envious of the people who have happy memories of their loved one. Mostly, my memories are awful: full of suffering, fear, loss after loss after loss. It's just so sad.
     
  6. PhyllisG

    PhyllisG Active Member

    Hey Carol - I am so very sorry for the loss of your precious son. All sons are so special to their mothers and I always thought about Joey as my little boy right up until the day he died. I really had to make myself realize that the little boy was gone, and had been gone for quite some time. We have to remember the happy and good things. I have recently gotten to the point where I really don't think about the 10 years of absolute hell because of Joey's disease. In fact, when I picture him in my head now, the first way he pops in my head is as a child. But I am becoming able now to visualize him as the handsome, good-hearted, grown man that he was. That helped me so much.

    I hope you try to re-train your brain on that because if you can, you will feel better about it. You have to try it - you've got nothing to lose. Check back soon and let us know how you are, okay? You will be in prayers.
     
  7. Katherine Macrone

    Katherine Macrone New Member

    I am so sorry and here for you. Lost my 13 year old son to cancer. Its like they were on the cusp of life and never got the chance. Its so hard because you try everything and just feel you failed them because your one job was to keep them saft.
     
  8. griefic

    griefic Administrator Staff Member

    Katherine, I'm so sorry for your loss. Thank you for reaching out to help others in the midst of your own grief. A parent's grief is so unique from other losses and only those who have lost a child can understand what you are going through. I hope you can find some of that support here, and thank you again for offering to be that support to someone else as well. If you have any questions about the site or if there is anything you need, please let us know...and please take care.
     
  9. Markysmom

    Markysmom New Member

    I lost my 16 yr old two days before Thanksgiving. It was sudden. Very unexpected. I have not been able to move forward. I think that getting past something like this is almost impossible. One minute we are parents, the next, we aren't. But what I know is that my son is in a better place, happy, and waiting for me to show up.