I'm new here, and after losing my husband 4 years ago and my son 3 years ago, I have found myself still struggling with the reality of these losses. I miss them terribly, and I have good days...even weeks, and then a family event comes up and the emptiness slaps me in the face again. Life isn't the same and never will be, but I don't seem to be able to find that happy place in me anymore. Sometimes venting is helpful. I won't give up.