I just joined this group like 10 minutes ago. I've had 3 major losses this year and it completely crippled me. In February, my aunt had a stroke out of nowhere and died two days later. It hit me hard but after a while, I pushed forward. Then in May, my stepmom died of sepsis. We had no idea that she even had it. It blindsided us. And then in August, my grandmother died of double pnuemonia. That's when I went downhill. She was my rock, my strength, my best friend. Yes, she was in her 80s but none of us were ready. I am already manic depressive so dealing with these losses are especially hard. My boyfriend doesn't deal with grief at all so he doesn't get it. I've tried to vent to him and grief but he just tells me to get over it. So I grief quietly, by myself. Yea the rest of my family is grieving as well but I feel alone. I've talked to them about it but I feel like I'm brushed off. I just need someone to understand and help me. I can't do this alone. And I feel like I'll never be any better.